Got Mr. DEE yesterday after my class at SM Bowling center //met-up with the guy’s mum there. and yea as expected i was like ^_______^ and a bit :| since i only have the 55-200mm which the zoom one so i need the 18-55mm toooo >.< anyhow, i was ALONE in SM yesterday, a friend of mine was suppose to go with me but blah shit happens. HAHA and i thought i can handle being alone sometimes since before i roam around malls and stuff on my own so yea, but yesterday i felt like WOW. this is pretty BORING even though i have Mr. DEE with me >.< it feels like i’m missing something. errrr nvm. random stuff just popped up in my mind. I should keep it to my self.LOLOLOL
So here are Mr. DEE’s first few shots.
and looking forward to have more funshots with Mr. DEE :)
I know I’m kind of late in watching Julia Roberts’ film, Eat Pray Love. (I’m no book worm so I haven’t read this book yet) And as I watched it, I think it was just the right time since I’ve been into some pretty rough stuff recently. I came to realize lots of things; I came to understand the nature of being a person as a whole. It opened my eyes again to the reality that people needs to balance everything.
Even when I was little, my dream is to travel throughout the world, enjoy every place and eat different food, experience different culture, interact with different races and simply witness the amazing world through my own eyes and capture the beauty of it (through photographs) and here came why I just love taking photos of the amazing wonders of God’s creations.
But reality check, I don’t have all the capacity to do this. First and foremost, financially, since I’m not born wealthy enough to travel from place to place in no time; secondly, I need to work hard for me to be able to do these. As the old saying goes, “When you’re young, you have lots and time and energy but no money, if you’re in your adult stage, you have your energy and money but no time and if you’re old enough, you have your time and money but no energy.” I guess that’s just the way it is. You can’t have everything, that’s the balance of nature.
Now I’m in the middle stage of life, expecting to have more fun, memorable great adventures life has to offer me but I just felt so disconnected than ever. I just think that the world is really that busy that one has no time to stop, pause for a while and just relax and chill for a bit and see the world move around you. I know I’m too young and I still have a lot of waves to pass through, but now I just don’t know what’s the direction of the wind blowing me. I just want some peace. I think everybody wants that or need that. But because people are just preoccupied with lots of stuff, one forgets how to connect back to their selves and lost track to what they really want or do in life or even worse, one forgets who they really are. In my case, I am still in the process of discovering things about myself, getting to know myself again, what I really want in life, why am I here, what am I here for since I just simply lost track of everything and I know people question these to their selves too. The world may be busy that causes me to lose everything along the way, at least now; I will try to pause for a while, breath and think. Control my mind and master my thoughts. It’s like, stop trying, surrender and just let it be.
“We all want things to stay the same, settle for living in misery because we’re afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Maybe my life hasn’t been so chaotic. It’s just the world that is and the only real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift; ruin is the road to transformation. We must be prepared for endless waves of transformation.”
This; struck me most. Yes, true enough that maybe our lives isn’t that chaotic, it’s just that everything changes and we are so attached to everything that in the end it’s so hard for us to let things go. Things change, people change and probably we changed. So that’s why, now I’m in the process of getting to know myself better, to treat myself better. And one must always be ready for endless waves of transformations.
And in facing the waves of transformation in your life, God is always with us in every journey we are through, but no looking at the world through your head; look through your heart instead; in that way you will know God. Free your mind from everything, close your eyes, breath, relax and He will just rush inside and fill you with love more than you ever dreamed of.